Laura

Go For the Goals

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What was the hardest personal goal you’ve set for yourself?
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Has to be becoming a nurse.

Thankfully, I don’t work in a hospital anymore

I’m not a school person, never have been. It’s not really “my thing.” I respect people a lot who are able to get through it, but it ain’t really for me.

I’ve always been the type for outside the box learning. Learning about the real world from living, traveling, being caught up in situations, having to work young and grow up fast.

No, I didn’t steal this pen, I swear!

Classroom learning bores the hell out of me, sometimes. Like watching paint dry. Of course, if it’s something I want to learn, that might be a different story.

Nursing is a hard one because I fight with myself a lot about whether or not it’s a profession I want to stay in. I probably will always do some variation of it, even if it’s per diem, but it’s stressful AF.

Then, there’s mediumship.

Fingers could be off in this one 😄

I’ve always been a spiritual person, even from the time I was very young. Just different, not into all the same stuff people my own age were. I closed myself off and opened up many times to all the weird visions, sounds, dreams and feelings around me.

It could be scary sometimes when I was younger (not anymore, thankfully), but it’s also enlightening and peaceful. There’s a lot of charlatans in the name of spirituality, and unfortunately my path has crossed with some of them a few times in the past.

How many more lessons are there?

“A lesson in discernment,” my mentor told me. Uhh…Thanks?

It’s through personal loss, grief, and hardship which I experienced in life that made me finally say “enough” to go full force with it.

And man, has it been one wild trip.

It’s Tuesday…that means it’s not Monday at least! It’s gonna be a long one though, I’ve been up since 3AM 😆 Have a peaceful one! ☕️

Also, tacos? Anyone? 🌮

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  2. I could go for a taco. Just sayin’.
    You’ve seen a lot and come out the other side to tell the tale. That is worthy of a huge round of applause.
    I always fall back on the old “Without struggle there is no victory” trope, but it’s true. Victory is always sweet, but none sweeter than when it is hard fought.
    Proud of you, always. 🤗

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    • Thank you! 🙏 yes, I’ve been called that a time or 2, lol. Not something I’ve always wanted to be known as. But I’ve accepted it 😊 thank you for your lovely comment, really was so kind of you!

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  6. As others have mentioned, to get to the learning and the practical side of being a nurse, to then achieving and the job itself will have been hard work. Achievement alone, along with any life difficulties. No wonder you have had burnout and then fighting with yourself whether you should stay as a nurse or leave.

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    • Thanks Liz 😊 yeah, it’s a back and forth I go on about quite a bit. It’s a lot. You know how quickly burnout and fatigue can set in 🙏 I gotta get like you and make that workout schedule 😊

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      • Yeah. It’s awful when burnout hits and fatigue. I have to keep an eye on what I do or how I behave that will give me fatigue crashes. But I think I am winning on preventing the major fatigue crashes.
        All the best with working out some kind of workout schedule that works for you. 😊

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  7. Indeed, empaths, with heightened sensitivity, absorb much more of the energies around them. Hospitals are places that promote physical healing, without a doubt, but energetically it is a very dense space, I say this because I worked for a period in a hospital as a nursing assistant and I felt exhausted. 😮‍💨💣 As for not following “common sense”, keep it up 😅it’s better. Great illustrations and text! 😊👏🏻

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    • Thank you 😊 you’re very correct about this. My mentor who is a medium told me one time I had fragments of others’ energy stuck to me, I was so worn down and exhausted. From that point on, I knew I needed to be better about protecting and shielding myself, and it can really make or break you. It’s so hard sometimes, the energy that facilities like hospitals carry. I’m sure you were absolutely drained! 🙏 and thank you so much, appreciated 😊 ✨ 🌙

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  9. I feel you in regards to the education! If I’m interested, great! If not, I’m snoozing! I prefer to learn along the way; I’m better at getting the experience, as opposed to learning from a book.

    Whatever path you choose, I’m sure you’ll choose the best for you 😊🙏💕✨

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  10. You’re so right about the way learning is carried out in a classroom. If you have 30 or so students say, you can guarantee that at least 10 of them will have no interest in what is being taught and they won’t pay any attention. But if you have a class that has a collection of students who are interested in the subject and want to learn about it, then they will pay attention and apply themselves. I went through school, college and university and I am by no means an academic. I achieved the grades needed to get into college and then uni and then in uni I went through the motions and got a degree but it was only an average grade. I didn’t apply myself because I was simply not interested in the rigmarole of sitting in a lecture hall for two hours being taught by a professor who had no personality or character. It opened my eyes. I became very skeptical about education in general and thought about it being a form of indoctrination and hypnosis in which you can effectively be brainwashed into the application of theory over practical application. I hope that you are very successful in your journey to be a nurse. If you ever need someone who has mental illness to write a care plan about then please let me know. Sending you positivity and love

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    • They have a saying in nursing school, “C your way through” lol 😆 it probably isn’t the best advice but they make everything so incredibly difficult and then when you get out in the real world it’s completely different anyways. Thanks for sharing this aspect of your journey through school as it definitely can be daunting for some. I very much feel that “go through the motions” type of thing because no one wants to hear someone drone on for hours who doesn’t know how to apply practical stuff to real world situations anyways.

      I actually do agree with you in some manner that some parts of schooling can be a bit indoctrinating. A bit of a “groupthink” or hive mind type mentality which I try to avoid as much as possible.

      I actually have worked in a psychiatric hospital and work with patients in recovery. Psych is my favorite sector of nursing besides working in the ER! Thank you for the offer 😊 it’s always good to have more information as things are always changing.

      Thank you for your very positive and lovely comment 🙏 😊 it really was so appreciated!

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      • You are very welcome 🤗 thank you for sharing this post as it resonates with me regarding my experience with studying. You can read all the text books etc but in the practical world you will find a different experience totally. You said you have worked in ER, am I right in thinking that this is the emergency ward? We call it A & E in the UK. You must be very skilled at working under pressure and in high demanding conditions if so. The psyche ward is very challenging too and I commend you for doing that. If I was to offer you one piece of advice from my experience it would be that you should follow your dreams and not settle for anything less than that. If you want to be a specific type of nurse, consider emailing the departments that are in your area and ask for opportunities to work for an hour or more and even say you would do it for free. If you show them what you’re capable of and they see your aptitude for the job it is possible to open up doors for you

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      • Yes, you are correct, emergency room or emergency department as it’s called here. I do find myself often working under high pressure situations and doing better but as time goes on (and I get older) lol I yearn for a more relaxed environment with still a bit of pace if that makes sense. Yes, psych can be incredibly challenging and it is definitely interesting. And thank you 🙏 your words are so positive and appreciated. Sorry it took me a minute to get back to you, but I like to give thoughtful replies and comments the attention they really deserve 😊

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  12. I’m sure your intuition helps with the nursing. And I do understand the classroom vs hands-on dilemma. Nurses need knowledge, but it isn’t anything like the practice of nursing. Come on over for a taco party, Laura. What do you like on yours?

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    • Thank you Mary! 🙏 That’s very kind of you to say, and I’m honored considering I know your intuition is spot on! 😊 That’s true, also. You can read from the book of course, but the application can be totally different.

      Yay! Taco party sounds so fun 😊 I like everything pretty much! Taco surpremo (with hot sauce!) lol 😆

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  13. my thoughts went the same as Mary expressed whilst I was reading… your intuition helping people with healing…
    if Monday is over…any other day is fine lol…(except maybe the Sunday night 🥴)

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    • Thanks Destiny 🙏 it does help sometimes when you are in tune, but then other times it feels like you soak up so much from others…I’m sure you’ve had to deal with that before and know how exhausting it can be 😫 haha!! I feel you too 😆 not a fan of Sunday night either 🤣 you can’t convince me that’s a “real” day off lol 🩷 always appreciated ☺️

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  14. “Like watching paint dry” 🥱 Made me laugh and it can be, yes. Kinesthetic learning is the best. Too much sitting makes for dull learning! I am so glad to have crossed paths with you, intuitive Laura and yes to taco Tuesday! 🌮

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    • Not gonna lie Michele, as I was typing this out I was thinking of you because I know you were a teacher! I was like, “I hope she’ll know I don’t mean like her!” 😆 of course, you understand 🙏 I agree sitting is no fun! 😫 Super glad to have crossed paths with you too 🥰 means a lot to me! Tacos for all! 🌮 🌮 🌮

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  17. Nursing is a tough profession for sure. The number of hours and all the things that nurses witness every day is just mind-blowing, especially during the COVID-19 pandemic. I don’t blame you if you’re looking for another career or a variation on your current one. I have a couple of friends who are doing travel nursing, and they told me that it’s definitely better. By the way, in the “Fingers could be off in this one” image, is that a coffee bean or a chocolate bean? I hope it’s a coffee bean. 🙂

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    • Thanks Edward 😊 actually, travel nursing was something I was really set to do about 2 years ago. I had a contract and everything ready to go, but backed out at the last minute. I always worry about the house I have here in FL and then having to pay for an accommodation as well while I’m on an assignment. Of course, lots of them are less than 3 months so it’s not forever, but I’d probably need to rent my house out or something. Travel nursing is still on my radar though, it definitely fits in with my line of “want to do” so it’s still something I’d definitely consider. Appreciate your sharing your thoughts as always 🙏

      Lol 😆 we’ll say it’s a coffee bean 🫘 haha 🤣 (I think it’s some kinda tiny small planet or something since it’s a cosmic background, or a black hole, who knows?) but now it’s a coffee bean! ☕️ ☕️ 😂

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  19. It just seems to be there should be a badge of honor for anyone who paddles upstream to accomplish a lofty goal like you have. Not everyone is wired perfectly to sit in a classroom, taking copious notes, and regurging all the facts back on an annoying bubble sheet exam. You are a Nurse, well that accomplishment itself is something grand to flout! 🎓🥂

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    • Thank you 😊 very kind 🙏 I don’t want to make it seem like it’s some sort of noble cause, there’s a ton of nurses out there, and even some not so great ones. But I do appreciate your kind and thoughtful words ✨

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  23. It’s a wonderful accomplishment, and something that, even if you move on from at some point, you will always have the gratification of knowing you rose to the occasion of, helping many people.

    I would think that it also has a lot in common, at core, with mediumship, but would be interested to know whether you feel that way.

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    • Thank you 🙏 and it’s so interesting you ask that, and it’s very much appreciated, too! 😊 honestly, I think they can go hand in hand. I have something out there that tells me I’ll definitely be using it more as time goes on, but the thing is, it’s exhausting. One can benefit the other for sure, though. You are in tune, so I’m sure there’s times when you’ve felt or seen (or dreamt) things with your instincts and just known them to be the truth or the case. You hear a lot about this in hospice as well, which is an area I’ve never been too sure I could work in, with all that energy. But even people who “aren’t into” spirituality will still tell you they heard, smelt, felt, etc things before people have passed, and even after. Or that the person came through, or hung around. There’s something very comforting I’ve read about death not too long ago, I can’t remember where…when the person is on the way to the other side, pets, old family members, friends, etc visit them when it’s close to the time, and it brings a lot of comfort towards the end of life. I guess some people might think of these as hallucinations, but I don’t believe they are.

      That’s why a lot of them always talk of “going home” towards the end, I think.

      Sorry for the novel 😊 I appreciated your question so much! ❤️

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      • 🙂 Please never apologize for novels, at least not with me! Your comments are richer than I hoped for, so I’m the one appreciative!

        Shifting into the ‘talking about spiritual things’ mode, I don’t believe those are hallucinations either. My great-grandmother saw what she called angels before dying, and my mother said she was always talking to someone. I’ve mentioned experiences of knowing when someone was going to die, or talking with them in the window just after, and that’s part of why I’ve been interested in hospice, because it does seem an extra layer of care one may be capable of giving someone, to give support for that person’s spirituality to flow as they’d like in their last days.

        But I feel, *not* having a medical background, I’m not sure I’d ever feel useful enough to be and feel I belong in that sacred space—so I feel you’re extremely fortunate, and on a path that can be many layered, with nursing being such a grounded thing one can do!

        I do hear you on the ‘exhausting’ part. You need that consistently, so much. This piece of the puzzle is a big one!! Big ‘availability’ means big unapologetic requirements for play and free time, too!

        Today I met a woman who said she coded 5 times in 10 minutes, then was in a coma for 2 weeks. It was so strange the way I got into this conversation, picking up with a light comment she made about aging. That kind of ‘into sudden depth’ quality with people is something I’m so grateful for, and believe it’s because there’s some level of comfort with in-between stages of consciousness.

        Though I have to say, I’ve been not so in tune at all lately. 🙂

        All to say that I’m fascinated by your path/s in life and the way they may see into one another!!

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