What’s your toxic trait?
Mine is that my phone is always on Do Not Disturb, heh.
Why isn’t that a daily prompt question, anyways? Maybe they just have it worded weirdly, like always.
And then this bitch still messages me when I’m off! Helloooo…leave me alone. I don’t want to be connected to my phone as it relates to work.
I started seriously searching for a new job since my boss took it upon herself to manage to message me on every.freakin.day that I was off last week.
Wanna see me quit real fast?
Hmm…I can think of a lot of questions I want to ask and get answers to. But then we know we never get all the answers.
Let’s just say, I’m feeling a bit of rage.
Could be that fiery Mars in my natal chart.
Or maybe that I’m blessed by Lilith.
Maybe even the fact that I was born in the Year of the Dragon, and Dragon women such as myself like to breathe a bit of fire into the ether when they are pissed off.
Don’t make me blow up.
Don’t let me unleash my fiery wrath. It is my favorite sin, after all.
I might appear to be a very open person, but it actually takes a lot for me to open up and trust people.
Especially people whom I care about deeply.
Yes…baring your soul naked and all that. Not easy.
Blah blah, blah.
By the way, I think my interview for the new job went pretty good. We’ll see. Maybe I don’t have to completely give up this hellish field, after all.
Haha, who am I kidding. That’s my goal, eventually.
Has anyone seen any good horror movies lately? I’m up for some recommendations.
Comedy works too. Truly funny though. Some of the things people laugh about nowadays are ridiculous.
I think it’s time for a bit of self-care. Even if it isn’t Sunday. Self-care is for everyday. 🙂
Or just a hard-core, brutal workout…that could work too. Also falls under the self-care category.
What’s your self-care routine? I love to hear what other people have to say.
Here I go again, asking all those questions. 🤪🙃
Nope! Nothing insightful here on this post! That was the last post. And all the other posts before it. Maybe.
This is a bit of shitpost, anyways. Also, sorry for the PMS-induced rant. This shit gets more painful every year I live on this wonderful Earth.
Happy Nurses Week!
Black Moon Lilith 🌙 
My toxic trait is that I never try to do anything on the long run. If it doesn’t work quickly, I give up. Now when I think of it, I give up becouse I fear it won’t work. Maybe it’s something else also. I’m afraid to invest my time in things for some reason, I’ll actually gonna explore why is it so.
My self care routine is taking walks in the nature of my village and contemplating things in my life or just enjoying the nature. It became a bit boring because I go through same paths usually, but it’s still good.
About rage, you don’t need any big reasons to have it. We’re all full of rage and sadness in this life, we just don’t pay attention to it usually.
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Oh, I completely understand this. I used to not put in too much effort if I felt an endeavor may fall, why bother? I’ve tried to work a bit harder now for the things I really want, but I really do understand this here. It’s overcoming that fear of failure.
Taking walks are nice and do help you to feel better 😊 that why I love being outside in nature, if I can. Helps you forget your worries for the present moment.
Rage, I’ve embraced it. The thing is not allow it to take over.
Thanks for your comment, as always! 😊 🙏
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I guess it’s overcoming the fear of failure. Or maybe even the fear of success? Or it could be lack of discipline, impatience? Whatever it is, I need to overcome it.
Yeah, walks are great. But writing also brings me great joy!
Regarding rage, I guess it’s the only way to deal with that emotion.
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Yeah, and I’ve just written my first poem in english. I wrote it in croatian, my native tongue than translated it to english. Check it out if you want to, you can point me in a direction maybe, how to write better, maybe I used some words in an irregular manner, don’t know.
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I saw it! 😊 I commented
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Hi Laura, my biggest self-care treat is doing everything in my own time, my pace, no rush. If I can get an appointment around 10am instead of 7, I take it. I rather do all errands on one day, saving time and driving, I do it. If I know I will be on a route with many left turns meaning I stand there till there’s a break in oncoming traffic, I search for a crossing with traffic lights. If the day is packed I rather cook dinner in the morning and heat it up later than eat a chunk of bread because I have no energy. My self-care is still a nice facial or a yoga session here and there but the biggest thing that really calms me is life, as much as possible, in my own pace. Take good care of yourself.
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Hey Alice! Thank you so much, this is actually really important, doing things in your own time and as they suit you. We live in a frantic world, so saving up as much of our own time to help us in the long run really is a smart, and wonderful approach. Thank you for sharing with me the details of that, and it’s actually something I’m going to look more into to doing 😊 🙏
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You hit my hot button mentioning interrupting time off! I have two managers, one of whom will work with me all day, but wait until I leave to send me a text asking questions or going over plans. The other will love bomb me in between walls of text about anything and everything. The thing is, the second one is wicked smart and a hot mess generally, so I really like her!! I still don’t want her to text me. 🙂 The first has opened up a lot but is more introverted, so I also don’t want to not respond to her texts.
But I keep thinking “Aren’t they teaching people NOT to interrupt people’s time unless absolutely necessary?” And if not, WHY NOT? Everyone knows this by now. :::grumbles:::: I mean, maybe super seldom, once in a while, if the work is ‘important’ like yours. But I work in freaking retail?! Pretty sure neither of us are making on-call wages though! Sorry to rant. Short version of the story is, I get you.
Self care? One thing is, beauty stuff. Today I’m going to exfoliate, deep condition my hair, get in the shower and put on a face mask (trying this because someone on tiktok said it’s a thing).
Trying to think of the last good horror film I watched. Not a film, but I liked Midnight Mass. I just discovered Mike Flanagan last year so have watched most of his series by now. 🙂
Good luck with your interviews and self care!
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Yesssss….omg 😩
This one sounds like one of yours! Doesn’t talk to me while I’m there and let me know what’s up, but I can guarantee almost like clockwork when I’m off she’ll send a text or something! This last one she messaged me every day (4 different days!) to ask me about the schedule…andddd to top it off she wanted me to work every weekend (not what we agreed on when I came over!) haha. What?! lol 😆 it’s funny, but it’s so not.
She’s a love bomber too. I hate that!! So annoying. Stop. Messaging. lol
And I get where you’re coming from, cause on the whole she is a good person and I like her but I don’t want to hear from her! Haha. 😆
And I think people are often just thinking of their needs at the time, so have no qualms about bothering others. I definitely wouldn’t do it. And yeah, I’m making my same, based hourly wage, so not getting paid any extra. If I was at a hospital, I’d be getting a differential for working weekends and nights. Not here. 😂 so I feel you.
Yesterday she texted me about a note that was missing lol. I’m like??? Do you want me to log in from home and do it, unpaid? Nahhh.
No worries about the rant! We all need to! 😃
I need to do something about my hair. It definitely needs a deep condition. I cut some ends off, but needs something extra lol. Ooooh the facemask sounds nice, did you like it? I wanna do some kind of facial eventually.
I have to check out Midnight Mass and Mike Flanagan. I think you mentioned him one time before to me. I need the spend the next 2 days just chillin before I go back to that hellhole lmao 🤣
And thank you! Always appreciated 🙏 ❤️
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Chill time, yes!
You understand the dynamic, where the other is just trying to get through their own to-do list, but they need to learn to stop and ask themself if it’s completely necessary or they’re just spending away any trust you may have!
As for the face mask I ended up exfoliating instead then doubted whether I should keep going with things.
Treat yourself really well the next two days!
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I bought some stuff, so we’ll see if I work up the nerve to use it 😆
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Hahaha … The images LOLOLOL !! Glad the interview went well or you could of torched the place !! I have impatience issues and have a very sharp tongue. Rage cleaning helps, but to reenergize, I too look for comedies and one that never fails is The Other Guys!
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😆 needed to inject a bit of humor into my life for the moment there.
I do, as well. Especially impatience. Well, the sharp tongue too. It takes awhile to get there but then when it does…eeee 🔥🔥🔥 haha, I try to keep it to myself if I can.
Rage cleaning! Sounds great, and actually very productive. Have to give this one a try, I’m sure I’ve done some variation before, but actually put my heart into it, lol!
Never heard of The Other Guys, thank you so much for the recommendation, gonna look into this one! 😊
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Yes !!! Tell me what you think after watching … I promise you’ll love it !!!
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No doubt you’ve got good taste! Will do! I need a laugh!
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