Laura

Questions and Lessons

🎶 I said, I won’t lose control, I don’t want it (Ooh)….I said, I won’t get too close but I can’t stop it (Ooh)…Oh, no, there you go, making me a liar…Got me begging you for more….Oh, no, there I go, startin’ up a fire, oh, no, no….
Oh, no, there you go, you’re making me a liar, I kinda like it though…. 🎶

What kind of people would we be if we didn’t question things in life?

Skyline Trail at Mount Rainier National Park

Boring, mostly.

It’s ok to be boring, too. No shade at boring. Never stepping outside the box or coloring outside the lines.

It’s safe, after all.

It’s just not my way of doing things.

I have this vast need to find everything out about certain subjects. It’s annoying and fun, both at the same time. I’ve often been told I ask a lot of questions. Curiosity, and all. Bad because curiosity killed the cat, and I am clearly Cat Woman.

I really do love that cosplay.

Oops, sorry. Where were we?

Ah, yes. Asking lots of questions.

But we know with more questions, comes even less answers sometimes.

I’ve never been the Type A personality either, (big shocker, I know).

Fly by the seat of my pants, hash it out, and if it leads me in whatever direction, I’m good as long as it works.

Until it doesn’t.

I’ve recently been questioning a few things in life. I’ve run into a series of bad jobs, same cycle, over and over again. Wondering if this is some type of lesson. Even perhaps karmic lesson. I’ve always been the type to run fast when a job starts pissing me off. Because the longer I wait around, the more irritated I get and then just blow up and say “fuck it.”

This is what caused me to look back on some things in my previous post.

Maybe it’s time to do something a bit different.

I literally can not remember if I ever mentioned this on here, (and if so, I’m sorry for repeating myself) but I went to the doctor in January and he asked me what my aspiration in life was. Haha. If he only knew the entire story.

“To go out and escape to the mountains and write,” I told him. That part is true, at least.

“So, why don’t you do it?” I remember him asking me. “Life’s too short to be unhappy.”

Indeed, it is, doctor.

Welllllll there’s that little thing about needing money and a job and to work to pay for our life, hah…if running off were that simple, your girl would’ve already done it, duh!

However, if I did go out to the mountains to write, how much writing would actually get done with all the hiking I’d wanna do?

I think I probably laughed in his face. And then he gave me 2 weeks off of work because, “you just look like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders.”

Hmm. Thank you.

So, can you guess what happened next?

I didn’t escape to the mountains and write.

And even now, I’m probably not going out to the mountains to write, not just yet, anyways…even though that would be ideal.

But maybe…it’s time for me to decide to do something a bit different?

Introspection and inner work, all coming into play, isn’t it? 😉

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  2. Is your current job satisfying partially at least? If it isn’t, I wish you luck and wisdom to find something that suites you. Keep us tuned on what happens next, it seems you have new oportunities in life, I wander what’ll come out of it.

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    • Thank you Brian, that is so appreciated! It’s not that I don’t like being a nurse – I do. It’s just the endless cycle of bad jobs out there lol, which I feel everyone can relate! 😊

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  5. “I’ve recently been questioning a few things in life. I’ve run into a series of bad jobs, same cycle, over and over again. Wondering if this is some type of lesson. Even perhaps karmic lesson. I’ve always been the type to run fast when a job starts pissing me off. Because the longer I wait around, the more irritated I get and then just blow up and say “fuck it.”” – and not you alone…

    I’m so happy that you have time off – to act, to think, to sort it out. Keeping my fingers crossed for your interview!

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  6. No words of wisdom from me, as you’re already quite wise–which also may be why not going where you’re drawn in a “Not all who wander are lost” kinda way, presents as such a strong question?

    I knew someone who spent twenty years in a tech job they disliked, saving like a miser so that they could spend the rest of their life as a contemplative teacher, making far less. Wish I’d thought of that earlier. 🙂 Another friend was part of the FIRE (financial independence retire early) idea, which is quite similar. She’s still quite young and has a simple and satisfying life in retirement, writing and editing texts for her teachers.

    I’m thinking there are often a few paths toward the same end, with these two as a few examples.

    Also, I’ve yet to hike Rainier! These captures make me want to dig into my savings and run away right now! 🙂 I won’t, cause the idea of it is enough for now, but I will pause a long while with these gorgeous photos!

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    • Thank you for this. And it is full of words of wisdom, haha!! 😆 yeah, I do like to do a bit of wandering and I think it’s great for soul-searching, and often we have so little time to do this, and out in the mountains is a great time to do it! 😊 Also, with Rainier, it as beautiful and I highly highly recommend it, was a bit snowy when I went haha so that was quite unexpected and a little difficult, but still something I wouldn’t change. However, next time I want to hike Mount Storm King and the Enchantments if I can. Also, the Mount Baker Wilderness needs exploring! I feel you on taking the money and just running! lol 😆 I said I wanted to go in August but it’s probably not happening, ugh 😑
      See, it’s always been my problem working in jobs I dislike, I just can’t. Makes my stomach turn. But, still understandable and hopefully he’s happy now at least. I’ll have to look into this FIRE thing, sounds interesting lol. Writing sounds amazing, it’s nice to have things but we know it’s not the things that bring us happiness. So simple, satisfying, sounds amazing! Thanks for sharing. 😊
      Now hopefully WordPress doesn’t block my long as hell comment, and I won’t have to type it over again 😆

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      • WP came through for us this time!

        In all your decisions, I wish you clarity and courage! 🫶

        My daughter went on a little hike when Rainier was still snowy and had a pretty rough time in places but still found it exhilarating. Nice to know there are such pristine places in the world.

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      • Thank you so much 🙏 ❤️
        Yeah, it can be deceivingly difficult, but doesn’t always appear so! Skyline trail isn’t too bad if you stay on the direct path. But some trails were snowed out completely! Glad she did ok 😊 and yes, amazing places for sure, hopefully they will stay that way, we can only dream

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      • Thanks for the tips about those trails. As much as I would love it, I am not strong enough to risk too weird a situation. 🙂

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      • Skyline trail is doable! That’s for sure. Just the snow complicates stuff haha. Yeah, I feel you though. I definitely have to train for some of them if I want to actually go.

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      • I did have the All Trails app on my phone for a while but it got too sad to keep looking at it while here in Miami. 🙂

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      • 😆 they have some decent stuff, not like Washington of course and we know it’s hot but, I saw they had a mountain bike trail not too long ago down there I was interested in looking at.
        Also, I like kayaking at Oleta. That place is pretty cool.

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  7. Laura ❤ … Hope the interview and plans are going well! Years ago, I was going to run away to Oregon. Life captured me and before I knew it and looked up again, it was another year or more. Now it’s all about the northern coast and inching my way there … I will call you the second I make it and have you fly out and you can hike, explore, and write your days away.

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    • Oh, you are always too kind, and be careful because I will take you up on that offer! ❤️ haha, yeah..time slips always, slowly but surely, ugh. At least we are immortal and will live forever in the sky, after all! 😊 hiking and exploring and writing is a dream come true! 🙏

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