As a child of darkness and a daughter of the moon, I have always felt Selene’s ever-present energy surrounding me throughout my entire life. I remember being so young and walking home in pitch blackness on one particular and fretfully emotional night, nearly 20 years ago. It was only after I had been walking for several long miles that I was acutely aware of how dark and dangerous it was. I looked up and Selene was there, watching over me. Guiding me, protecting me.
I could get lost forever, wandering the depths of the darkness, and I wouldn’t need a compass to lead me to where I need to go.
Many years later, I happened to seek out a Pagan Priestess for guidance. I needed help sorting some things in my life and wanted to know about the myriad of signs I had been seeing, rushing into my life like a tidal wave. Someone was trying to send me a message, but I wasn’t sure who. I had my suspicions, however. This gifted woman told me that the moon goddess was reaching out to me because she wanted to protect me with her light. It was in this instant, I realized she had always been with me. It made sense – my connection to the moon, the water. Her illumination has never led me astray.
Thank you, for your divine light and protection, always. You’ve never led me down the wrong path, and often I find myself beholden to your mysterious lunar cycles, the epitome of the dark feminine energy and power you bestow upon the world. I look up to you, and you always have the answers. I listen to you, for you have much to tell about life. I speak to you, and you heal me.
Night energy- it has always encapsulated me. Encoded in my DNA, raging through my spirit, rampaging through my thoughts and my mind.
Nyx, she’s another story. For another time, another place. Not now.
And then, of course, there’s Lilith.
Lilith.
Who people often spend years trying to evoke, often with many unsuccessful attempts to connect with her.
What the hell did she want to tell me?
Maybe one day I’ll tell that story.
Black Moon Lilith 🌙 
I was having such a hard time sleeping, but read your dark and peaceful post and got back to it soundly. Goodness, another great photo, too.
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Oh, thank you so much ❤️ I’m glad you got back to sleep. 😊 I read your post and I’m about to go comment on it here shortly, just getting in from work
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You have really cool divine guardians 🙂 Thank you for sharing your story with us!
Lilith is also close to me, she gives me signs, and appears in my short stories, meditations and dreams… As an astrology geek I figured that it could be partly because my Black Moon Lilith is exalted by sign (whereas my Moon is weak by sign, but the queen of aspects nonetheless) and aspects my Sun… Could it possibly be similar with you? If you have a Cancer Moon, it’s no surprise that Celene reaches out for you; this is her energy ❤
Greek goddesses… I have a good connection with the Nordic pantheon (both gods and goddesses), and some Hinduistic (like Saraswati), Babylonian (Lilith), Celtic (Cerridwen) deities are interested in the mutual connection/work, but Greek ones seem indifferent, even though I feel so much in common with Persephone…
It’s interesting how it all works…
Light&Darkness to you, and have a nice day,
MarvellousNightmare
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Hello Marvellous Nightmare,
Your name is most intriguing to me, as I used to have a screen name “Beautiful Nightmare” when I was younger lol 😆
Thank you for your most interesting comment. I love when I can talk to people about astrology. 🙂 I do in fact have a moon in Cancer, so I absolutely do feel that energy you’re speaking of. The connections you have are quite impressive, there are other deities I do as well but chose simply not to list them here. That’ll come out in time. However; I don’t believe I have a connection to any Celtic deities, which always has surprised me. Greek, Norse, and even Egyptian are ones I’ve connected to/have a connection with.
Ahhh, Lilith.
If she seeks you out, or you have a connection to her, then you know how abundantly she shows you her signs. Oddly enough, I had read your comment before I left work, and decided I would respond later, because I didn’t want to be hasty in my reply. As I was driving home, I was listening to music and suddenly her hymn by Peter Gundry came on and started playing – something I hadn’t listened to in monthssss. (Haven’t looked up anything on Goëtia recently, either) It’s like she’s always saying “yesss…I’m here.”
Lilith has gifted me with many things, and I am grateful for her.
Very nice speaking with you, and I hope you have a lovely day as well. 😊
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Regarding the nickname, this is a quote from About Me and this Blog:
“Firstly, this nickname was about my inner contrasts and struggles; now, it’s mostly about the fact that I’m not only about light, good, and golden pink sparkles. I give off the vibe of someone dark and gothic; my art is very dark and shadowy. I’m artistically blocked when I don’t write this way. I’m quite sad and serious sometimes, but my heart is in the right place, and I want to build and support, not to destroy. Call this whatever vibrations you want, but it’s me. Yin and Yang or Ice vs Fire. I’m both, and in the very middle – both Marvelous and Nightmarish.”
I know that it slightly similar to your self-description, and it struck me when I visited your blog for the first time 😉
The inner contrasts and struggles mentioned above were mainly about my mental health issues (bipolar affective disorder, and BPD), which also suited this nickname very much. Additionally, my prose is very dreamlike (since I’ve become more psychologically stable, I write like this on purpose). I should also thank Alice Cooper, because my initial idea for blog title was ‘Welcome to My Nightmare‘.
In the next message, I’ll refer to the other topics mentioned in your answer 🙂
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That’s very interesting! Sorry it took me a while to get back to you, I just got off work and came home and fell asleep, finally 😊
I can understand and resonate with that dark writing aspect of your personality. Sometimes it just flows and you have to allow it in this way. It’s healing. Thank you for sharing with me the background, I always love a good origin story, very informative!
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You’re welcome, and it’s absolutely fine. You have your own life, and my reply was a bit too long (and I was afraid it was a bit too honest) 🙂
Yes, writing horror stories is definitely healing. Speaking of which, I’m really glad that I’ve met another Reiki Practitioner (me too), who also thinks that way and doesn’t simply suppress all their inner darkness.
Thank you!
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So sorry, somehow this comment slipped through! Awesome that you also practice Reiki, which level are you? And I don’t think it’s ever good to suppress darkness, because then it ends up bottling up and coming out. I’ve often had to deal with a lot of underlying rage, and that’s from years of taking so much garbage from others. I’m sure you can relate in ways how hard it can be sometimes.
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I also don’t receive updates about your answers to my comments; maybe it’s some WP technical error
I’m a 2nd Level (Okuden) practitioner of Reiki Shiki Ryoho. What about you? 🙂 I often hosted group sessions for free during full moons when I was on FB. I’ll try to bring this tradition to my blog, though it may be harder…
Yes, I definitely can relate and even insist on the importance of shadow work (both in the Jungian and Witchy way).
Have a nice day 🙂
MN
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I also highly appreciate the opportunity to talk about astrology because it is one of my truest and biggest passions 🙂 I’ve been into it for 14 years 🙂 Maybe you’ll allow me to do a reading for you sometime.
Yes, I also haven’t mentioned all the deities who have reached out to me.
Cerridwen’s connection was a total surprise to me. I’ve never delved deeply into Celtic traditions, but given her role as the Goddess of sorcery, inspiration and transformation, I suppose her energy resonates closely with mine 🙂
Yes, I know 🙂 There was a time when books, channels about Lilith, red Full Moons and songs non-stop showered me. What you describe is a very definite sign from her; you have a very good connection with Lilith!
As for Goëtia, I know that you refer to a magical tradition&grimoirs, but if you are into dark ambient, I’d advise you to listen to Lustmord – Goëtia, a truly entrancing track…
I also deeply enjoy writing with you 🙂
Best wishes,
MN
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Yes! I love astrology too. Anytime you’d like to talk about it you know where to find me 😀 and that would be most appreciated, thank you for the offer!
The connection sounds pretty awesome, would love to hear more about it sometimes.
And yes, the signs. True be told, I felt her signs for many,many years but they became more apparent as time went on. Again, something that you know and understand is just with you. 😊
Thank you for the recommendation as well! I’ll have to check it out.
Hope your week is starting off well!
❤️
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Yep, I know!
You are welcome, and you know what I’ll need for that. 😉
I think we see and hear more when we create a deeper connection with our subconsciousness, as well as with our true self.
My Monday is just fine, I hope yours is too. 🙂
Warm regards,
MN
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It’s Tuesday now 😆 and thank you. Definitely some wise words there, we should always be our true and authentic self.
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Great post and awesome pictures Laura! I hope you post on Lilith soon. I can feel your energy through your words ✨️ 🌙
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Thank you so much! 😊 haha, oh Lilith. Yes, I will have to write something for her soon. I was just responding to another comment, whom I was saying that on my way home from work Lilith’s hymn randomly popped up on my playlist and started playing. It also stopped at 3:33, which is another sign for me. 😊 hope you’re having a lovely weekend!
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Awesome post !!! I’m so drawn to the moon and always have been … a total night owl at heart and celestial geek to the mostest (lol) ~ I’m beyond fascinated by your stories !!! Thank you for sharing ❤
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Thank you! The moon is a mysterious being, most definitely. Night owls…lol we are a special breed, for sure. Appreciate your comments as always and love that you have an amazing understanding of my writing! (It sometimes feels like I speak in riddles) 😆 ❤️
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And I’m always riddled (lol) ❤
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