Last night I was visited by a strange being; while I was in my insomniac induced stupor- spirit gave me information about where my life is headed. The problem is my mind never switches off, the consequence of being the type of person who thinks too much and creates scenarios in her head, which is a problem I have tried to solve since I was a younger version of myself, but have mostly been largely unsuccessful at.

So, I might be a bit crazy.

But at least I’m not boring.

All too often I have tried to control situations and this has been my downfall, rather than going with the flow. It is a fact,  I often go with the flow for MOST things,  but if it is something truly dear to me – I try to control it to make the outcome I want in my favor. Don’t we all?

The problem is this – no one really knows if there is only free will, or only fate, or a mixture of both. Energy is constant, even if it is stagnant energy, and you can’t control other people, only your own reactions. However, in this world of mostly vapid and superficial connections, it is becoming increasingly difficult to find like-minded people.

If I am constantly thinking about how much I don’t want something to happen, somehow that very annoying thing is attracted to me. Yes, there is law of attraction and all that, but sometimes things just are meant to be.

Or are they?